Assalamualaikum. Hye.
It's been a while. okay, a boring start. Proudly present a new post and wholly written on a new lappy. A present from my dearrry mom. thanks mom. okay, now the start lebih cool than usual.
It is 6 June 2012. I started writing this post at 10.41pm. In my room. Dengan keadaan nak sangat tidur. But, tidur for me, this time, seems boring. I need something to feel my boring time. Blogging, dah lama tak tulis idea karut kat sini. so Hello Im here for mengarut. DO FORGIVE if terkasar bahasa.
This is my story.........
On 22 March 2012, at 6. I woke up. dengan sendirinya. Hati macam nak meletup! That day, SPM RESULT. Skit lutut sendi jantung perut semua datang. except ketenangan. Also, dan warning kat parents malam before the day supaya tak payah nak ambil tahu from kawan2 yang kat PPD about my result. -At 10. Phone rang. Mom on the screen. "Helo?" Me said. "Along dah tau result?" Mom said. "Ma dah tahu? apa kak long dapat?". "hmmm, along g tengok sndiri lah kat sekolah". "Ma gtau lah, so tak terkejut sgt nnt. tak pengsan". "hmmm not bad, 5A. But you got 2D". I cried. For two reasons. Reason yang pertama, Got 5A. I reached my target. Reason number 2, 2D. Tak credit. SC subjects, both. Puan Chemistry dan Encik Biology. Padan muka aku, aku memang benci dengan bio. Aku buat selamba dengan Chemistry.
I walked to school. Near school gate. Phone rang, lagi. On the screen, "Sharek". "Helo?" Me said. "Fai, kau di mana? Fai, kau jak dapat A BI!". Sharek directly said the sentence. "HUH?" Terus end the call. On the way to Pejabat Am, Sharek ran to me. I ran to her. We hugged. Lompatlompat. Suara mcm nak jerit. sebab kami capai target. our 5A yang maybe sgt sikit atau lemh for budkbudak yang lebih high mindanya. lebih pintar. Jalan jumpa Ustazah. Aku salam Ustazah. Ustazah suddenly peluk me. "Tahniah, agama dapat A". Me just, :O Tak pernahpernh dpt A mahupun B+ mahupun B agama kalau test. Paling baik C. I never target my agama for an A- sekalipun.
Terus tengok result. First impression, Addmath. Rasa nak nangis. I scored B. Before this E pun susah nak dapat. Jumpa teacher Irene. Salam dia. Tanya about EST. "B+ sahaja". Aku senyum. Dalam hati, dunia ni macam nak terbelah dua. It just need lagi sikit effort, for at least A-. I sat. Call mum. Told about Addmath dan semuasemua subjects. Tengok Tasawur, B+ jugak. hampeh.
Guys, bukan nak show-off aku dpt berapa, but this is what I got. A for SEJARAH, BAHASA MELAYU, PENDIDIKAN ISLAM. A- for ENGLISH and MATHEMATICS. B+ for TASAWWUR ISLAM and ENGLISH FOR SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY. B for ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS. C+ for PHYSICS. D for CHEMISTRY and BIOLOGY.
Stop about what happened at school and after then.
In April, 2012. 7am. Merlimau, Melaka. Phone kept receiving msgs. KBOMM from friends. Talking about getting Matriculation Offer. I check. One msg received. "Harap Maaf, anda tidak berjaya bla..bla..bla.." And I did feel nothing. I'm still okay because I'm in my vacation. After how many weeks I forgot, I told my cousin to check my Maktab Result. DUKACITA. I cried. A lot. Parents disappointed. In May, 2012. Tawau. Jalan nak gi Bank Rakyat. Waiting for UPU msg me. Bout my UPU offer. dapat ke tak. Call kawan. Cek. Suh jgn ckp lagi. Dah tarik nafas, then, "Fai, dukacita". Ended phone call. Cried dpn parents. Mental time tu, : I HATE FORM 6! NO FORM 6 FOR ME!
8 May 2012. Kunak. First day of form 6. Mental kurang baik. Macam nak nagis je kerja. Fikiran entah ke mana. dalam otak, satu je benda. I hve no friends kat sekolah nnt. Sharmilah tak da. Apa cikgu cakap nnt kalau tengok aku kat form 6. Apa kwn2 kelas lain cakap. Hati resah. 9AM. Jalan gi sekolah dgn Mel and Kuyen. Aaaaaaa! Urus tu urus ni. Jumpa budak baru.suasana baru.new subjects.new me. Pra-U. well, form 6 COOL. Baru tersedar. School life mmg awesome. Tak da lah low. Setaraf A-level. Hati terpujuk sikit, demi sedikit, sedikit lagi. And now, My heart is fully terpujuk. Alhamdulillah.
I do REDHA with what Allah gave me. I do BELIEVE that He already fated me something great. But, masa je BELUM TIBA.Alhamdulillah, today, tmorrow, yesterday, aku mampu TERSENYUM. Indahnya ketentuan Allah. Perjalanan hidup yng ditentukanNya. Syukur. Thankful.
Aku redha dengan apa yang Allah bagi. Aku YAKIN. :')
Esok, RAYUAN MATRIKULASI keluar. Kalau dapat, Alhamdulillah. Kalau tak, Rezeki aku kat tempat lain. Form 6, MAYBE? Doakan yang terbaik for me, for my friends. For our future undertakings. for our future success. Our iman yang strong. Our hati yang tabah. Our DIRI yang tak lupa jasa ibubapa,kawan,guru, and, Allah.
Fai, 11.36pm.
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